Life Sucks.

I’ve thought about starting a blog for years—somewhere to place all the little pieces of life that don’t make it into photo albums or Instagram captions. The good days, the messy ones, and the quiet, nothing-special days. This is my space to share all of it. Right? Judgment-free?

I’m 33 years old, married with children—and I feel like I have no life outside of that. I’m craving more. More adventure, more excitement… just more of something that isn’t part of my everyday routine. I wake up hating a life that other women might dream of. And I ask myself: what’s wrong with me?

I don’t feel the urge to be anyone important. Not a legend, not even someone worth remembering. Just a girl who wants to feel alive again.

I mean,

What is life when you don’t even know who you are?
How do you love someone without hurting them?
And how could anyone love someone like me—when I’m not even sure I’m capable of being loved?
Am I worthy of unconditional love?

Look at me.
The flaws pour from my eyes like floodwaters.
My mouth spits fire when I speak the truth—
Or maybe it’s the unhealed, bloody wounds that draw you in.
Is that what makes me appealing?

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I’m Schanntel

Hello, I’m just a woman who has worn many hats to support everyone around me. But now, I’m on a journey to rediscover me. For so long, I’ve put myself last—sometimes not even on the list. I’m learning to laugh again and mean it, to speak freely without fear, and to reconnect with the version of me that got lost along the way. This is my time to grow, heal, and truly live—not just exist. Getting to know myself isn’t just the next step… it’s the most important one.

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Quote Of The Day:

“Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise”