As It Comes….I Will Remain … Schanntel

Now I look at you differently.

Lies poured from your mouth so easily—

Lies that kept me bound,

Lies that made me weak,

Lies I was too blinded to see.

The betrayal lingered long after you left.

It was there from the very beginning.

Tell me, how am I supposed to feel?

Like I knew?

Like I wanted this?

You planned it from the start—

To break me, to kill the love inside me.

Your broken promises left lasting damage.

You knew, and you played the game so well.

A game I never meant to play,

A game I never thought would be played on me.

I came to you with healing wounds,

Still trying to heal what hurt in you

Before me—

From the start.

And yet, you had plans to break me down,

Even when I came with a pure heart.

How could you be so hateful,

So dishonest,

So cruel?

You turned my love into hate.

Now I can’t see love the way I used to.

Not you to blame—

But me.

I thought it couldn’t happen to me,

Not with the heart I have,

The morals I keep.

But you planned it,

And you played me.

As you slept,

I stared at the night—

Sleepless, starving,

Telling myself this too shall pass

(knowing damn well it wouldn’t).

Beating myself up,

Because I kept choosing your lies.

You thought you broke me,

But I learned to rise from the ruins.

You built your power from my pain—

Now I’m building peace from your betrayal.